It has been a long time... Again... Job search is officially over-I will be a part timer at Kohl's where I will be able to work at customer service, cosmetics, or front end... Yay :)
We signed up for LIHEAP and got our first heating oil delivery... Thank goodness because we had nothing in the tank it's so hard to have to decide how much food to buy and how much oil to buy... We are still over a month behind on our mortgage, we don't know when the payment will happen... One paycheck a week and now at part time hours is hard enough...
Through it all we have remained as strong as possible we both have our moments where the pressure and stress seems to just hang on our shoulders but oh my goodness we love the kids and I think that is what keeps us strong... We hope we can still have our wedding in April of '09 but we don't know, we are more concerned about our house... The sad thing is even if we didn't have the house we would probably be homeless because we can't afford to rent a three bedroom apartment in our area...
On the positive side though I think my minor stint of stress and depression is taking a break, which I am enjoying.
How is the weight loss coming? I have lost about 5 pounds which considering my stress level is great... Unfortunately I am tired so much that I don't exercise which I think if I exercised more I would have more energy... But today I need a nap before I exercise I only got about 5 hours of sleep...
Things will get better....
I found this poem and it is exactly how I feel about my special guy :)
If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.
- Courtney Kuchta -
I joke with him all the time about why I want him to quit smoking, so I don't become the old, crazy cat lady someday... :) I just can't picture going through life with someone other than him. We have been through so much and we remain strong... We are not perfect, we stumble along the long list of things "not" to do and we go back to life as usual... We yell, we both want to be right.. Have the last word, and we are both fiercely stubborn.. But we have passion, for each other, for life, and for our family, we know that we are meant to be with each other...
I sometimes try to think of words to explain all that he has given me...
I know I would not have finished school without him... I wouldn't have Chloe without him. Kacey would not be doing as well as he is now if it weren't for him... I would not be where I am and have the life I have if it wasn't for him... I am a better person and I know I will be eternally thankful for him :)
cheers to you my man, my love, my friend and the best father to two wonderful children... I will love you always :)
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